Today was a decent day...

Dear Piper,

I missed you today. Just like every day since you left. However, I felt you today. This may have been the first day that I felt like you were really here. I was peaceful.

JD also must have felt your presence. He did really well today and I'm beginning to relax. They are talking about lowering his breathing support tomorrow because he did so well. They also said they are going to try and deter surgery a couple more weeks on repairing his hernia. The bigger he is? The better.

Piper, I thought of the life you might have had. I sat next to your brother today and I imagined what it would have been like. Of course you were gorgeous. You had amber hair and bright green eyes. Your daddy has green eyes. You were tall. Taller than mommy. Must take after your dads side of the family there, too. You were getting married and were wearing mommy's wedding dress. Oh boy did you look amazing. Your happiness shone through the world. Then I snapped out of my day dream. I realized you would never get the chance to be happy. You would never get married.

I don't know what heaven is like but I would like to imagine that you get to visit the life you should have had. At least then you would know what life is like. I hope God gives you a peek.

I will let you go for now. I miss you and love you more than life!

Love always,
Mommy